Another rant blog

And this is coming from a girl with the mind of a guy. I absolutely can't stand control freak women who are obsessive about having the house spotless and see dirt and everything everywhere despite it being clean. They nag and complain when the cleanliness isn't up to their impossible standards. They nag about chores. They nag about not being "appreciated" when they should just shut the hell up and maybe people will appreciate them more. I've lived in a household of mostly women (just one guy) my whole life and they drive me nuts. I've lived in that god-awful Tay program and had to deal with stupid female roommates and psycho house managers. My aunt would nag me all the time for everything and thinks it's fine, yet if I speak out against something I don't like, she bitches at me for being ungrateful and stuff. No, YOU'RE the ungrateful one for criticizing me for not doing things to your crazy standards. If you hate the way I clean the bathroom or anything else you make me do, pick up the damned brush and do it yourself. I can't deal with women who act like this.

As for myself, I've never been in or cared to be in relationships. I've thought it over on what I want. I'd like to go for a very submissive woman who will do whatever I say with no backtalk. She'll cook my favorite meals to my specification, do all the household chores, pay all the bills, drive me to wherever I want and basically be my little trained monkey. I want someone who's loaded and will buy me whatever I want instead of bitch at me to give her money. She should love me unconditionally, meaning that no matter what I do or how I treat her, she won't leave me and she won't nag me. I want someone to pamper me and treat me like royalty.

My warped views on relationships and on people in general is one of many reasons why I don't do the whole dating thing. I admit that I do have crushes on a couple close friends, but fearing that I'll hurt them prevents me from telling them. If they told me first, I could maybe do it. Though I did tell one of them and the ever present thought that I have hurt her or might do so in the future is always on my mind. The prefect woman for me that I have described above won't mean that I can't have partners. It's like if I had that woman and my friend together right here, my friend and I can go do whatever it is couples do while my little pet will cater to us, get us drinks or whatever we want.

I'm always worried that I have unintentionally hurt my close friends and losing them would be very devastating. If I lose my longest friend, I would most likely kill myself or something crazy to that effect. But if I do, that'll hurt my other close friend and she's told me before that she won't know what to do if she loses me. I'm certain that the same thing will happen if I lose her instead of him. So, I worry about losing both of them. -_-